Tuesday, July 31, 2007
6:22 AM
another day. another boring day
today's day wasn't that entirely boring day i must say. with a lot people being proud of me cause ' the old Ernie is back'. shes' no more the bitch that she used to be. and with that i gotta someone to thank. my friends who stood by me, who were listening to my every problem. thank you, Jm0, farah, Izzat, Man and not to forget my dearest hero, Zi.
these few weeks had been hectic i must say. i mean, ive been very rude to some teachers lately and i just don't know why. i gotta survive school somehow. man. i'm just so happy to be thankful them.
hope i'll be more cheery as always. hope the old me stays in within. haa haa
Monday, July 30, 2007
5:05 AM
are we not clicking?
i aint feeling it.
why is that so?
just because i lose myself to something, i lose everything?
man, what's happening?
Friday, July 27, 2007
4:52 AM
super pissed and something i must admit
now im gonna type this in the most harshest ways possible.
went to school as usual. late. and when i reach, the are no one in class. bloody hell. then i called one of my friend. she lagi gerek, she told me there are no class. then i was like , WTH. then i sat in school for like an hour cause teacher said we can only clock out at 10. i was like so pissed off.
was supposed to meet the guys in school, but i met a friend outside instead to settle some problem. and i thought i was ot in the wrong but all the accusations was pointing at me. so freaking f pissed and i told em, go to hell and i told em, we are not friends, we never were. i cried eventually but i just walk off.
met the girls at school and my heartaches were onto them. i wasnt in any mood. so i just kept quiet, most of the time, i hide my angryness and just make em laugh. its the least i can do.
met shima after, but i waited for like 30mins. but in that 30 mins, i met a friend of mine again, and we had a short talk about us, and both suddenly break down. i cried, so do they. and by the time you know, shima reached. i couldnt show her that im crying so i told myself to b happy most of the time when i'm not. i wasn't in a mood to go out actually, but shima has been so busy with her stuff and i think that today was the day that she can have time for me. so i went with her and follow her buy this skinny jeans that she wants sooo badly.
after receiving a msg, i totally change. from happy to angry. i mean like, i thought it was over. but it was not. if i had known, i'll kill myself. after, asked shima to go home cause she look damn tired.
i got something to admit.
i thought i lost someone dear to me.
i thought i might never talk to her.
but after all this time, i knew she was there for me and i do miss her, even though at times my ego's are huge than anything else.
she took care of my well-being.
and i will love her so dearly to me. shes's none other than..
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
10:20 PM
loner is the way to live.
okay.. school has been sooo boring from the day it re-open. not that i don't have friends, i do, but i think it's better off that i'll be alone. now that i know a lot of stuff still happen even during my presence, the best way to get out of it is to ignore. only for now, it can't always be ignored forever.
had a long talk with shima last night. it was very long indeed. ended bout like for an hour or less. talked about stuff and all. about her ehem guy and how shes still not over it. i can't help her much. i don't know how to. i'm still stucked in school still thinking of a way out and a way of surviving. imagine not having anyone by your side. ha ha. i do miss her lots. i mean, besides my family, she's the only one who understands my feelings and my secrets. but after all, i can't depend on her much. shes has her life. live with it dude. dang.
im in web design class right now. hmm, oh yar. i miss my liezel. my sayang. she called last 3 days ago and we talked longer than i spoke to shima on phone. shes resigning soon and she wants to hang out with us. well, duh i will hang out with her. who doesnt. she help us doing running most of the rime while we were working. hanging clothes when no one wants to. And shes going back to her hometown soon. but hey, she's wanting to continue study as a nursing student in MY school. but that will be like next year. i can wait. for her. my sayang. HAHAHAHA. i love you aite girl.
Sunday, July 22, 2007
8:41 AM
wedding day.
its my cousin's wedding day today and thank god nothing happen. i mean, something 'bad' happened last time. thank god its much better this year. manage to take couple of pics. and boy, it was so tiring today. check this out. less words, more pictures.
Monday, July 16, 2007
4:55 AM
a walk down to memory lane at taka
okay okay, ive been bragging about work. but off all the work place ive worked at. this is still the coolest thing that ive ever experience. lets view the pictures. as you walk down to memory lane of me working....
I'm missing you guys loads. esp my sayang liezel.. where are you??
no more doing that stupid stuff kays??
Thursday, July 12, 2007
6:59 AM
this is to those who think your friend STINKS!!
don't waste your time - kelly clarkson (songs on the left side, click play)
It's over, it's over, it's over:
It seems you can't hear me
When I open my mouth you never listen
You say stay, but what does that mean
Do you think I honestly want to be reminded forever
Don't waste your time trying to fix
What I want to erase
What I need to forget
Don't waste your time on me my friend
Friend, what does that even mean
I don't want your hand
You'll only pull me down
So save your breath
Don't waste your song
On me, on me
Don't waste your time
It's not easy not answering
Every time I want to talk to you
But I can't
If you only knew the hell I put myself through
Replaying memories in my head of you and I
Every night
Don't waste your time trying to fix
What I want to erase
What I need to forget
Don't waste your time on me my friend
Friend, what does that even mean
I don't want your hand
You'll only pull me down
So save your breath
Don't waste your song
On me, on me
Don't waste your time
You're callin'
You're talkin'
You're tryin'
Tryin' to get in
But it's over, it's over, it's over
Friend
Don't waste your time trying to fix it
So save your breath, don't waste your song
On me, on me
Don't waste your time
You held me
You felt me
You left me
But it's over, it's over, it's over
You touched me
You had me
But it's over, it's over, it's over my friend
Don't waste my time
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
10:31 PM
school galore. school shucks. missed working
okay.. its now the third day of school. wow, not much difference i must say. although i must admit, i do miss working more now than schooling. i missed all of those crazy full timers. my favourites people like Elaine, Liezal, Dilla, Mama Vic, Jasper, Angel and many others.
i remebered during sales period we were all working our butts off till like 1.30 in the morning. i missed those days. now that i kinda get into the habit of working till late night, i can't even sleep even though its 2 in the morning. guess i gotta tire myself out.
what is going on in my life i never know. i thought life passed so fast and everything seems normal but i guess it doesn't. life is full of ups and also a lot more of downs.
i don't wanna care about others now that i know my life is like this. the more i tried helping others, the more i can't help myself or even find help from outside.
the truth is, i've still not learnt my lesson on any of the reality that is going on in the world. women need more than 2 things in life. while man, only 2, and that is money and women. once they have both, they are already at the both worlds.
it hurts me to see the one i loved, love somebody else.
if thats is what you say my future holds, so then be it. it is better to have loved and lost than not to have love at all. right?
one day, i'll see you on the streets, saying hello's and bye's. and maybe, talking bout the old sweet time. but not all the sweet love..
guess, i'll never know. its up to HIM to decide..
7:48 AM
before the goodbye
last day. before the goodbye. at 11.30pm. missed you all!!