Friday, July 27, 2007
4:52 AM
super pissed and something i must admit
now im gonna type this in the most harshest ways possible.
went to school as usual. late. and when i reach, the are no one in class. bloody hell. then i called one of my friend. she lagi gerek, she told me there are no class. then i was like , WTH. then i sat in school for like an hour cause teacher said we can only clock out at 10. i was like so pissed off.
was supposed to meet the guys in school, but i met a friend outside instead to settle some problem. and i thought i was ot in the wrong but all the accusations was pointing at me. so freaking f pissed and i told em, go to hell and i told em, we are not friends, we never were. i cried eventually but i just walk off.
met the girls at school and my heartaches were onto them. i wasnt in any mood. so i just kept quiet, most of the time, i hide my angryness and just make em laugh. its the least i can do.
met shima after, but i waited for like 30mins. but in that 30 mins, i met a friend of mine again, and we had a short talk about us, and both suddenly break down. i cried, so do they. and by the time you know, shima reached. i couldnt show her that im crying so i told myself to b happy most of the time when i'm not. i wasn't in a mood to go out actually, but shima has been so busy with her stuff and i think that today was the day that she can have time for me. so i went with her and follow her buy this skinny jeans that she wants sooo badly.
after receiving a msg, i totally change. from happy to angry. i mean like, i thought it was over. but it was not. if i had known, i'll kill myself. after, asked shima to go home cause she look damn tired.
i got something to admit.
i thought i lost someone dear to me.
i thought i might never talk to her.
but after all this time, i knew she was there for me and i do miss her, even though at times my ego's are huge than anything else.
she took care of my well-being.
and i will love her so dearly to me. shes's none other than..
